christmas is coming to town

Just as the good news arrived, it was raining outside..

Baby it's cold outside..

thinking

When I can't stop thinking, I sleep. I'll still be thinking, but at least I won't be awake. When I can't sleep, I'll be thinking.

So, everything goes around like a circle.

Could I ever stop thinking?

Kenapa ya gue lagi ngerasa aneh. As in, my stomach feels weird. And I know that's a manifestation of my thoughts. Aduh ga ngerti.

Shit.

Another point.

I hated him. Just as much as I hated him, I came to realize that by listening to him, he actually has some part of me. A large part of me. Like when he's telling stories, I often say to myself: that's me. me.

And I can't hate myself.

Or, let's say, it's hard for me to hate myself.

Jadi gimana ya.

Aduh.

Bingung.



As in, I maybe just need a hug. A warm hug.