time mine and yours

Barusan liat foto seorang yang deket sama saya lagi di London Eye *memakai jas yang keren*.

At first, i bursted into tears, realising it's been a -whole-year-waiting and now all my dreams of going to WSDC fly away just like that, since the prohibition of 3rd year debaters was announced.

Then.

I came to think.

Yeah. I have to admit, everybody's got their own time. Maybe I'll get there someday by my own effort. Or maybe I'll be living there. So, envying other's time right now is not a good thing. I'll just let them have their own time. And be proud of them for their success.

*nice* I feel nice.

Thanks, hug!

dewa

I want to be a blanket for your heart.

ex?

Kalau tadi malam kamu lihat seseorang lagi jalan di EX jam 11 malam dengan memakai kaus hitam seadanya, ransel FILA rombeng, jeans, dan sepatu Wilson yang salah satu sol nya udah gak ada, it was me.

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Sorry for those of you who like strolling down at EX on saturday night, I find the over-sizedly crowded club named EX as cruel. The later, the worse. Gigolo di mana-mana. Walk tells, fashion yells. Prostitutes walk in a way that is unseparable with how bitchy girls do. Well, banyak orang baik, tapi yang brengsek lebih banyak lagi.

Sorry for being cynical, but that's how my eyes see.

Phew.

md

Hi. What a week. And yesterday, it was a blast.

Thanks to the member of SAD TANGO Modern Dance team: Bajaj, Thomas, Ricky, Hendro, Kakek, Richard for all the hardwork! I still remember how a month or more ago, when we first met to discuss the MD, and ended up complaining why it was so hard to dance. All of us are guys, which leaves no room for girls and their sexy moves, but hey, now who's laughing at who? We got 90-85-90, and all of us are guys, dancing as hard as we could. Who says we need girls to get 90? XP

Now, the job's done, done with the MD test, got great mark, got great times. And now, I just, I just think that nothing is impossible when we want to do something impossible. Well, all guys, have no skill in dancing, have to create a 3-minute-md-moves and practice without a coach! And, we did it. We just did it. We did it well. Thanks to the hardwork, thanks for the moments, thanks for the great great lesson I learn from you, guys, I take my hat off, for all of you, for spending the last weeks of training with me. We did it. Thank God. Thank you all for the cooperativeness and the motivation, I respect it so much. And, I'm sorry if I'm too strict on you, well, I'm a perfectionist. We can see the result now, rite? =]

Thanks!

Ricky: Pang, thanks buat semangatnya! Ga bakal balik ke ITC lagi kan? Haha.
Tomas: Thanks buat ketawanya pas latian! Thanks udah ngimbangin gue yang serius pas latian. Yo, yo, yo!
Hendro: Thanks udah tahan sama gue yang demanding and perfectionist, but, sekarang ada hasilnya kan? =P
Bajaj: Thanks buat segala antusiasnya, latian hari minggu gak akan pernah gue lupa!
Richard: Gue tau lu bisa, dan, lu buktiin ke gue cat, kalo lu bisa! Keren!
Kakek: Well~siapa bilang kakek ga bisa dance? Menurut gue, kakek total banget pas ngedance! Keren banget, kek! Thanks!

Siapa bilang bebek ga bisa dance? XP
Bebek, bebek, bebek!

today

TOEFL Test jam 8-12, busway dari Benhill ke Stasiun Kota, ITC Mangga Dua jam 1-5 sore cari kostum md kayak orang gila kaki mau patah, metromini dari Mangga Dua ke Muara Karang, latian md sampai jam 6.30 sore tadi.

Gila. Kaki mau patah. But. That was fun. Thanks! =)

happy birthday

Happy Birthday, BirthdayBoy!

Hope you can keep up your good work and make your dreams all come true.
But. Will the rain greet me happy birthday today?

Have a wonderful weekend!

summertime

One day before my birthday.

One bad news. Urgh.

Saya ga keterima PMDK UNPAR.

Well. That makes me wonder, apa yang salah? Nilai, cukup, dibandingkan dengan temen2 yang keterima. Gambar? Well, gambar saya lumayan bagus, dibandingkan dengan temen2 yang keterima. Plus, saya kasih surat rekomendasi yang isinya semua achievement saya. Plus, 2 juta sumbangan sukarela--di mana yang keterima itu ada yang sama jumlahnya, dan sisanya lebih gede dari saya.

Trus, apa yang kurang? Duitnya? Nilainya? Bahwa mereka masukin slip bukti pembayaran di amplop coklat itu, katanya? Bukannya ga bayar dulu ya?

Arh.

Tau ah.

So much for today.

Saya lagi gak enak badan, dapet kabar ga enak pula.

And tomorrow is just my birthday.

Oh please.

summertime

2 Days before my birthday.

Pernah sih kebayang, satu priceless birthday di mana saya bisa ketemu semua orang yang saya sayang, makan bareng mereka, ngobrol sama mereka tentang semua 'terima kasih' 'maaf' dan 'kenangan' yang gak akan pernah saya lupa saat sama mereka, semuanya, ah saya pengen banget ketemu kalian, pengen nangis nih, saya pengen ketemu mereka dan punya satu hadiah kecil yang thoughtful buat tiap-tiap dari mereka.

Hope they don't forget me. Ever.

Thanks for being there, thank you.

Felix, where have you been? Kapan kita ke PS lagi?, Aconk, ga ada kabar?, Mel, sorry gue jarang bisa pergi.., WS, hey, thanks for being there--you tried to be my bestfriend and you did well, Anthony apa kabar di singapura?, Dea I wonder if I could talk a bunch with you like once we did before, Abbie how's life? goin well?, Ardi--long time haven't heard bout you--you were so nice to me, Andrew I wish you the best thanks for the summer your book is still with me, and other thing as well, Bayu sori ya semuanya gimana kabar gebetan?, Kv how's all? Thanks for those calming replies thanks thanks thanks thanks for all, As3d Tella Randy Meno Thomas Bajaj Dodo Richard thanks for being the greatest friends thanks thanks, JJ Andrew thanks for being there for me, X, we've been together for 2 years I know I'm hard to understand thanks for all you're there for me, thanks, in my heart I don't miss a single person, I love you all..

Suddenly..
a look in those eyes that were dear to me..
my soul's beginning to sway, what a beautiful lovely day..
why couldn't you stay?

Summertime..
is the time I fell in love..
with a person I'm still dreaming of..
Feeling it makes my heart insane..

What I really want is you..

summertime

Halow.

3 days before my birthday. Tiba-tiba ngerasa mellow. Contemplations. Am I doing good things in my life? Am I being a villain? Do I want something back in return everytime I do good things for people? Contemplations never end.

Ada 3 hal kecil yang saya ngerasa beruntung banget bisa ngalamin:

1. Lembang, Rumah Retret Karmel.
Saya ngebukain pintu yang kekunci dari dalem pas ada om-om yang kekunci di luar rumah retret. Beruntung saya dapat kesempatan buat tolong dia. Saya gak bisa ngelupain ekspresinya setelah itu, dia thankful banget.

2. Gereja Regina Caeli.
Saya gak sengaja kebawa 2 kertas misa. Pas nengok kebelakang, saya ngeliat ada bapak-bapak yang ga kebagian kertas. Saya kasih ke dia. Simple thing like this, though, saya baru ngerasa berguna.

3. Kemarin.
Saya nganterin temen dari gatot subroto jauh jam setengah 8 malam ke sekolah di grogol, kebetulan searah pulang, dan kalau dia ga ikut saya, dia harus naik bus malam2 ke grogol, lalu sambung bus lain ke kota, lalu naik metromini. Saya nyesel gak bisa nganterin dia ke rumahnya, karna saya udah disuruh pulang dan lewat Roxy pasti macet banget, tapi saya seneng bisa nganterin dia sampai grogol. Lebih dari setengah perjalanan pulangnya dia gak perlu naik bus lagi. Temen saya ini perempuan. Saya seneng banget bisa bantu dia, walaupun sedikit.

Setahun ini ada banyak banget kesalahan yang saya buat. Enggak tahu apa hal-hal kecil di mana saya berusaha bantu orang bisa nutupin kesalahan saya. Well, I try. Saya pengen jadi berkat buat orang lain.

That's my birthday wish.

Summertime..
It always reminds me of special times..
Nothing but sunshine and you..
Today those memories they make me feel blue~

fun?

Kemarin sukses mengalami 3 les sekaligus:

Les mandarin jam setengah 10 sampe jam setengah 12, Les Kimia jam setengah 1 sampai jam setengah 2, langsung ke Patra Office Tower Les SAT sampai jam 6 sore.

To be honest, it was fun! Ketemu temen2 baru.. XP

*huhuhuhu.. kapan bisa jalan2nya..T.T*

list

Hi. What's up? Putting aside all rollercoaster of emotions I'm having this week, these are some progress I've made or I will make:

1. UNPAR PMDK ADMISSION - Done. In the process of processing my application, I'll have to wait until 17 Nov for the announcement whether I get the PMDK seat or not. Pray for me! *fingers crossed*

2. NUS APPLICATION - Done. Today, my doc will be sent to Creosis NUS representatives at Kelapa Gading. Well, I don't expect too much on this one, since my mid-semester marks are terribly disappointing. But still, it's worth a try.

3. TOEFL TEST - Up next. 19 Nov. Right after my birthday, yeah right. Huff.

4. SAT II TEST - Up next. 2 Dec. See, I haven't touched the book yet, and I will only have 2 weeks to prepare. Geez. *all my fingers crossed, everywhere*

5. SAT I PREP - Start today until the test date, 20s Jan. Well, this one is a relief since I don't have to worry about learning at home. Now I have an exact schedule and a tutor, that's less to worry. At least I don't have to be warned all the time for being lazy even to touch the book.

6. PRIN##### APPLICATION - Left for a while. I will really manage this after I take the toefl test. So, I'll just cry for now. T.T

7. YA## APPLICATION - Same.

8. LIMK##W### APPLICATION - Happily left until next year. Yay. I don't have to worry so much about this, I only have to get a good TOEFL mark, and keep my math score above 7.0. The intake is next year. So, I'll just sit around for a while.

9. Q DESIGN COMM. - Working.

10. ANOTHER DEBATE SELECTION - Coming up next week.

Sighs. I guess I won't be able to indulge myself until like next 2 months. T.T And, please add up the burden of being SMAK 1 student in the list, as the teachers are not happy unless they give a pile of assignments and tests. Sighs. And yesterday, I even broke my leg, I barely could walk.

Hello, people. Be thankful you have a shorter list!

Have a nice weekend!

*what is a weekend now I don't know: I have to prep TOEFL, I have to study physics for Mon, I have to manage Q Dsgn Comm, and today I have THREE COURSES to take..Amen!*

I don't want to run in a circle.

One problem we be through, please, don't want it to happen again. But, let's see those fact.
We're running in a circle. Sounds terribly stupid. I barely find myself a reason why I keep doing this all over again. Please. I don't want to run in a circle.

ALBUM JUDIKA SUDAH MAU KELUAR!

HITS TERBARU: BUKAN RAYUAN GOMBAL DI PRAMBORS DAN I-RADIO!
NADA TUNGGUNYA UDAH BISA DIDAPET BUAT XL DAN iM3!
DAN SUARANYA.. LUAR BIASA! I must say, lebih bagus daripada MIKE!

*teary eyes*

never be lonely i tell myself

People in love get lost and foolish. People in love get everything wrong.
People in love get scared and stupid. People in love get everything wrong.

B-b-b-b-b-baby I think I'm going c-c-c-c-c-crazy..
And why should I be sane without you?

I'm asking you.

komplikasi

Tadinya saya mau membahas kata 'maaf'.

Tapi.. hmph, maafkan saya.



Gimana rasanya jadi orang jahat ya?