a word or two

..Supernova, saya benar-benar tidak menyangka.
Bagaimana mungkin sesuatu yang tadinya berusaha saya pertahankan mati-matian justru kembali ketika saya lepaskan?
- Arwin to Supernova, Supernova: Ksatria, Puteri, dan Bintang Jatuh. Dee, 2001.



Buat Erika di Jakarta sana.
Semangat, te!

after all these years

One of my friends back in junior high school suddenly popped up in my apartment yesterday, staying for 2 days in my housemate's room. Funny how I feel, I think nevertheless, playing back my memory of me and him, we weren't close: even he was in my enemy's group; I feel happy just to see him after all these years.

Time flies. He's changed, I can tell. He was nothing like he was, he is now better. Way better. I can tell from what he says, I can tell from the gestures. Grown up.

I'm so happy to see him again after all these years.

Really happy.

Mr. Curiosity

Hey Mr. Curiosity,
Is it true what they've been saying about you,
Are you killing me?

Hi people. I'm alright. =] College's been very good. Friends have been very good. I miss my family though. Huf. But here is alright, just alright.

I just gave the SABD society my design work, so I hope I have what it takes to handle either the blog or the print design. I can't say which one I want. I want both. Hahahaha.

Anyway.

This is what I've been making all week, it cost me numb palm and fingers. Sighs. But it's worth the work. We succeed.



And this is what I took from the plane.

Actually, I still want to share something. But I haven't taken picture of it yet, so, later. =]



Have a nice day, people.

Shit happens.

And the saddest part, it's no one else's fault, it's mine.

See you in PJ, tomorrow.

Rrrrgh.

Happy Birthday, Mel!

Rasanya lega. Dulu saya pernah bilang, kadang obat yang paling manjur kalo lagi bete atau limbung itu adalah sapaan ke atau dari teman2 yang deket di hati. Ga salah. Barusan aja, saya ngerasain itu.

Lagi scroll down di phonebook handphone, tiba2 ada nama Melz. Seseorang yang walaupun jarang ketemu tapi emang udah deket dari dulu. Sahabatan dari SMP. Masih suka ketemu. Tapi jarang kontak. Saya telpon dia.

Mel, mau nonton ga besok? Itu doang yang tadinya mau saya tanya. Ngobrol, ketawa2, tiba2 dia bilang saya jahat. Jahaaat. Katanya. Saya bingung? Apa salah saya? Saya mikir. Mikir sambil ketawa. Tiba2 saya inget.

Hari ini dia ulang tahun.

=]

Salah satu kelemahan saya adalah ingatan akan hari ulang tahun teman2 terdekat. Tapi entah bagaimana, saya sendiri dalam hati pengen banget inget, jadi dari bawah alam sadar, nama2 sahabat saya serasa muncul ke permukaan. Mengingatkan saya bahwa entah dengan alasan apapun, ada sesuatu yang penting yang terjadi dengan mereka, seperti ulangtahun.

Tiba2 inget percobaan Faraday. Dua orang yang terpisah tanpa ada ikatan materi apapun, bahkan udara, masih tersambung benang tak tampak yang menghubungkan satu dengan yang lain. Iya, ini buktinya.

Bahkan Felix yang saya telpon setelah Mel, juga ngaku bahwa dia tanpa sengaja melihat yearbook SMP dan tanpa sengaja melihat tanggal lahir Mel ini. Kebetulan? Tapi kenapa saya juga bisa kebetulan? Hahaha. Rasanya memang ada benang tak tampak dia antara kita bertiga.

I miss you, guys.

Selamat Ulang Tahun, Mel!
Wish you all the best. =]
Sukses examnya besok!

sepanjang jalan

Baru aja ngelewatin satu hari penuh di tengah kota, Jakarta, dari Beos alias Stasiun Kota, Gajah Mada, MH Thamrin, sampai Sudirman. Cape dan bahagia. Tapi aneh. Kadang saya ga bahagia kalo ga tau apa orang2 bahagia atau engga. Dan keadaan 'ga tahu' itu terlalu luas karna hubungannya adalah ke 'ga bisa tahu' bukan 'ga mau tahu'.

Di detik ini, saya lebih ingin orang lain bahagia dan saya tahu mereka bahagia, daripada saya bahagia tapi ga tau orang lain bahagia atau engga.

Kadang kita hanya ga tau kita lagi ngerasa apa.



Iya, kayak gitu.

growing up

I'm 19, and I'm settling down.

There is not much to say, for maybe I'm still learning, but growing up is the road that leads me here now. Back in tracing some of the old posts in my blog, like the old 4 years ago, I've found that I was a kid. Snobbish kid, super snobbish. But looking back at some of the posts from 2 years ago until now, I've been able to be better, I'm not a kid anymore.

Still got tons of things to learn. As an adult.

Anyway. I'll be going back again to hometown for this chinese new year holiday. Such a blessing. Thanks to AirAsia and my college just for making it happen. I miss my family so much. But here, in PJ, Selangor, Malaysia, I've also found home. So, I'm so much grateful. It's surprising how I learn that town people, town kids, grow up faster than those who come from small town.

How? We deal with schedule, we deal with competitions, we deal with everything that is no slowing down, we deal with diversity appreciation, and the most important thing is that we deal with ourselves back since we were kids. We found ourselves. I'm not generalizing this, but those who come from a small town can't figure out how to stand in a competition. Can't endure those tense responsibility. Can't rush for anything.

I'm lucky I grew up in a big city. Like I've got headache because of the tight schedules and routinity when i was 11. It's kinda sad, but it makes me what I am now. I start doing what I have to do before I can do what I want to do when I was 13. I lost my weekends when I was in my highschool. I have none of them. I survived.

And the most important part is, other than being so individualistic, we deal with diversity since kids, and we learn to appreciate diversity.

Well, this applies to me, I don't know if other townboy agrees with me.



Happy Chinese New Year!